Book release

Tomorrow, September 1st, I will celebrate our 6th wedding anniversary by releasing our story in digital book format. Downloadable as a PDF file, our story will be available in English, Italian, Spanish, French, German and Russian. 

Please check back tomorrow for details on how you can purchase and download a copy.

 

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Eight years ago today

Jennifer and I met on this day, eight years ago...I knew the first second I saw her that she was the one. Jen was so beautiful and strong; she was full of life.

I understand I have to heal and that Jen didn't want me to spend the rest of my life feeling sad, but she knew what this road would be like for me - Jen had been a widow for 10 years by the time we were married.

These days are often the toughest...anniversaries can put things in perspective. We've all lost someone we love. Let's go easy on each other and try to be more understanding on these special days.

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Brighter every day

I remember flying to Manhattan on October 3rd, 2006, with an engagement ring in my pocket. Jen said "yes," and then we hailed a cab and  headed to - our - new home.  

Now I look at this nearly finished book and it sinks in that Jen passed, that this is real, and that I have to keep moving forward.  

Some days I feel strong; some days I fear the wind will blow me away. But, those windy days come less and less while my memories of Jen grow stronger and brighter. 

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Book release

September 1st is coming fast...I'm excited and nervous about the release of our book. 

The book will be available in digital format on iTunes and as a PDF through my website.

50% of the profits of all book sales will be donated to The Love You Share, a non-profit organization I am starting in honor of Jennifer. The mission of The Love You Share is to provide financial assistance to cancer patients in need while they are receiving treatment for cancer. The hope is that by sending a gift card from Fresh Direct (a local grocery delivery service) and reimbursing patients for transportation costs to and from hospital and doctor appointments, The Love You Share will be able to make life easier, even if only for a short time, for someone who is fighting for her life.

The Love You Share has applied to the Internal Revenue Service for 501(c)(3) tax-exempt status.  Donations to The Love You Share are not currently tax-deductible while its application is pending.  If The Love You Share receives tax-exempt status, donations received while its application was pending may be treated as tax-deductible contributions retroactive to the date of its formation. 

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I had it so good

Last night I was looking at this portrait while I listened to "Moon River" (Morrissey's version). It hit me just how good I had it. Jen was so damn cool. She believed in me, even when I didn't. She picked me up when I was down, and never held it over my head. She just wanted me to believe in myself and follow my dreams. 

I know I was lucky to have been Loved like this in my lifetime, but it still hurts like hell.

 

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Gifts from loved ones...

Twenty years ago my dad was diagnosed with lung cancer. I was 19 years old and did not yet realize how little I knew about life. Ten years ago my mom was diagnosed with breast cancer. I was starting to realize how little I knew about Everything but I still didn't have a clue about how precious life and Love are. Five and a half years ago Jennifer was diagnosed with breast cancer. Now I know.  

Along with Jennifer's Love, watching my parents take care of each other is the greatest gift ever given to me.  

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The Love You Share

Exciting news! A few days before Jen passed I asked her if it was ok for me to start a non-profit in her honor to help other women with breast cancer. Jen smiled and said, "Yes." It has been a long and challenging road but last week the law firm that is helping me with this process submitted my application to the IRS. Now I will wait to hear back. Please send positive thoughts that the application is approved!

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Empty

Having one of those moments when I would give anything to have a conversation with Jen. Jen had a way of understanding; she would listen and never dismiss my problems as being unimportant. No matter what was going on in my life I always knew there was one person who understood. Right now the emptiness of Jen being gone feels like the weight of the world.

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A New York Love Story...

In October of 2006 I moved to New York to be with Jen. On the night I arrived I had an engagement ring in my pocket and I proposed. I remember riding back to our apartment that night - we were holding each other close and staring at the ring on Jen's finger. 

The next summer my sister Mary Ann sent this cover to us.

 

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