Just be there

Can't believe I made this photo 2 years ago today...it feels like our friends were just sitting in our apartment pampering Jen. 
I know it's difficult to know what to do for someone who is facing cancer, but just being there makes a huge difference. Jen was sick but she was still alive; she still wanted to be treated like "Jen."

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An old friend...

Yesterday I was in a dazed mood...just a bit out of it. I got on my bicycle with no destination in mind and ended up stumbling upon an outdoor show by a band I used to see often before I moved to New York - The Carlos Jones Band. I had my camera and went to the front of the stage. It's been nearly 7 years but Carlos not only immediately recognized me but he also remembered my name, and when the song ended he gave me a big hug. Carlos is a class act and he lifted me up. 

http://www.carlosjones.com/

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One year ago today...

One year ago today we held a memorial service in NYC for friends who couldn't make it to Ohio for Jen's funeral (by "we" I mean our friends put all of this together and I just had to show up). I remember walking into this beautiful spot, located in Chelsea, and thinking, "Jen would love this."

When I look at this photograph today I am reminded of how fortunate I am to have so many people in my life who have been there for me this past year. I also love that so many people are smiling. 

As horrible as losing Jen has been, the moments when I remember Jen's smile and love are the moments that keep me going.

Lesson here...smile.

xo

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